Im certain that just like me, you also had lots of plans for the 2020. Whether it was to travel, go to a festival, organize a big graduation party or a wedding. Then out of the blue all your plans where canceled and it sucks right?
One of biggest plan for this year was to celebrate our traditional Ovambo wedding in Namibia this coming July. Ive always dreamt of a big traditional wedding that lasts about a week, with its small and big ceremonies in between, but most of all I couldn't wait for Jonas (my husband) to experience it all. So we made plans and booked the basics, a decorator for the wedding and a photographer. For me these two seemed to be the most important that had to be booked earlier and the rest we would book closer to the date. Here in Finland people usually decorate their own weddings, but I know for just practical reasons people in Namibia get a decorator to do their traditional weddings. Our decorator was going to take care of everything concerning our wedding tent, since our venue was going to be our grandparents farm, which again is a very normal thing to do at a Ovambo wedding. I also decided to put up a website, just because I thought it would be best way to inform friends and family of all the things that where going to happen during that week and avoid getting many messages and phone calls about everything and especially since we were going to have guest who had never been to Namibia before.
I had a friend of mine who is a very talented Graphic Designer design our website, because it wasn't something me and Jonas had ever done before and just thought it was easier to have someone do it for us. Would it have been cheaper to do it ourselves? Yes it would, but would it have looked as good? Nope! Sara did an amazing job as you can see below :)
Once we realized that we had to postpone the wedding due to COVID-19, it was actually easier then I thought it would be, which is probably because we are already married. I do think I would have been way more stressed if this was our first wedding ceremony, so my heart does go out to those who literally had everything ready and set for their big day. I have been seeing on social media that most couples have decided to have their weddings anyways, with ofcourse way less people, which I think is really good. Get married now and celebrate bigger later! Well what about our traditional wedding plans? They are still there and Id love to say we have a new date and so on, but the reality is, its just too early to say. This being said, Im still planning and doing what I can during this time, because I am not giving up on my traditional wedding dream, even if we have to wait for a few more years.
This got me thinking, is it wrong to plan our lives? Do we plan too much, too far ahead and leave little room for hiccups and Gods plans for us?
"In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps." - Proverbs 16:9
I personally don't think there is anything wrong with making plans, having dreams and hopes. The problems comes when these plans and dreams take over our lives and we become almost obsessed with what we want to happen. Like I said in a previous blog post, I have a plan for my 5 year plan but even though I do, I am still very aware that God is incontrol and that He's Will will prevail and I want his Will to prevail in my life. I want him to close the doors that aren't for me and stir me in different directions when Im heading into ones that won't do me any good. The reason why I plan everything in my life is because to me it just comes very naturally, but also because Im not very comfortable of just waiting everything out and hope for best, if you know what I mean. There are periods in my life like now for example where I don't know what I´ll be able to do for the rest of the year, but I still have plans for what I might be able to do. I think its all about balance. Don't be a control freak! TRUST that God is working all things for your good (Romans 8:28), because He is! Dream and dream big, but don't stop dreaming when those dreams don't come alive. Just go ahead and dream some more. Don't forget to pray though, because a dream or plan without a prayer is like the house build on sand and when the big waves come, the whole house gets torn away. Prayer is the rock on which you build your plans and dreams, and remember the wise man who build his house on the rock was not disappointed when the big waves came, cause he was still chilling in his house :)